Forgetting Who I Am

A lot of people have told me.. “You’re going to be nothing.” They have tried to tell me that I won’t do anything with my life. These people have followed my life through the internet or through other people hoping that they will hear that I’ve failed or that my life is miserable.

I don’t really care much for these people and I don’t really play their “game” by caring what they think…

But honestly, I already feel like I’ve won.

Let me explain why

Before I start I don’t want you to think I’m up here preaching to you that I’m “so good” or “so successful” as you read on you’ll understand that this is not a blog to brag.. as you read on, you will understand my true meaning. Now that you know that.. let me go on.

A lot of the things I’ve written have told you how much of a struggle I’ve been through. This doesn’t make me “better” than anyone else, it just makes me who I am.  If someone has been through tons of trials it just means that God is trying to strengthen them. I THINK it is in D&C 121 or 122 when it talks about Joseph Smith in jail. In that section Joseph basically asks God why he has to go through these tough times.. to which God reply’s “this experience will be for thy good”

For thy good.. that is really comforting.. to know that something hard can be for thy good.

So back to my original point, all the people who have tried to bring me down or put obstacles in my life, I just have to laugh at..

I know that my freshman baseball coach told me that I’d “never be a good college baseball player” 3 All-American titles later I felt like mailing my awards to his house. But I didn’t and I never will. Only because I don’t want him to think my life has revolved around proving him wrong, because it hasn’t…

I guess that’s my point, we ALL have people like that in our lives. People that don’t like us or want only the worst things to happen to us are ALWAYS going to be there. And it gets worse the more you move up with your life. The more and more success that i’ve earned has been at the push against more and more trials. My whole life I’ve been pretty good at what I do.. my dad has always warned me of success.. telling me that “its very lonely at the top”

But I don’t mind the trials.. I have never accomplished something that I consider “success” without some sort of trial in my way.. Meaning, if Mt Everest was twenty feet high, no one would care if you climbed it. Get my point?

So as we all push on against the people trying to destroy us, we have to remember one thing, we can’t get caught up in trying to make them unhappy or trying to prove them wrong. Cause the moment we do, we lose focus on what we truly desire.

A lot of people have told me “you’ll never make it to the big leagues” But to me, my minor league career is NOT going to be based off of if I make a big league game or not. I know that as good as I was, am or may become, I may NEVER step foot in a big league game. I can’t control what scouts think of me or if I get injured or not.. All I know, is that all I can do is set my focus upon ONE goal that I CAN control.

That one goal, is to be successful.

I believe success is measured by the ability to accomplish ones desire. If you’re desire is money, then you can measure your success by money… to me.. my desire is to never quit. My desire is to push through hard times that may come.. cause they will make me stronger and make me into someone special. My desire is to hold someone through hard times to be a comforter to them and a guide in their life. My desire is to take each situation I’m faced with and learn a life lesson in one way or another.

If I want to be successful then I can’t worry about proving my nay-sayers wrong or finding ways to make them look bad. I have to worry about ME. I have to worry about my TRUE desires and my OWN success.

If I get caught up in their little games to bring me down, then I’ll never find success in my life. So I can’t, and I won’t.

I’m going to just worry about me, I’m going to worry about what I can control and what I want to accomplish.

So keep pushing, there is ALWAYS going to be someone trying to pull you down… you can’t worry about them. Focus on WHAT YOU WANT and don’t let ANYTHING hold you back from accomplishing your goal.

The few of us that push through the mold will always be laughed at, lied about and hated… Look at Moses, Abraham, Joseph, Peter and of course Jesus… the more and more they became successful, the more and more people hated them.. But NONE of these people quit, NONE of them lost focus on what they wanted.. and that’s why ALL of them were successful..

So push towards success, and as long as you never let the words of hatred fall into your ears, and as long as you keep pushing, you will fulfill any desire that you wish to accomplish..  And even though my dad says that it’s “lonely at the top” I do understand what he means.. But in a way I couldn’t disagree more, without the help of my family, (especially help from brother Jason) help from friends (Kim, Jenn, Thurm and Kate) and my girlfriend Nikki, I wouldn’t be at the top… and trust me.. with all that company, I’m far from lonely. J