Thursday, July 26, 2007

Lean With Me

Now I’ve known you for almost two years

Been a long road through laughter and some side trails through tears
I’ve never really done much for you, you’ve done more for me
Support, love, and care… you’re kind of like family
So what do you do, when your support system needs help?
How can I be there for you? Can’t even support myself
I hate to see you down, can’t stand to see you cry
Lost in the thoughts of your loved one who died
Can’t be there to hold, Not strong enough to lean on
I know you’re at the horizon, waiting for dawn
Can’t tell you it’ll come, I’m still in the dark
I’m a heavily kindled fire, wating for a spark
Sparks start fires, fires warm hearts
Hearts fill the empty gap while we are apart
My service is here for you, for anything you need
My mind won’t rest til your heart lays at ease
I know you’ll be fine, you’ve always been a fighter
But this warm fire of comfort, is in need of your lighter
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Monday, July 23, 2007

Faded Hands of Creativity

Pretend is the best game
No need for money, fancy things.. or even clothes
Cause Pretend is the best game
A bed sheet made into a robe fit for a king 
A wooden spoon becomes a leathal weapon to defend the castle
There are no limits when you can pretend
There is nothing like a childs veiw on life
Mommy and Daddy are in love
All the world is rich
No one dies
Mean people always lose 
And a happy day is one random giggle away
Then…
Something becomes tainted
Something.. ruins us..
No longer do girls have koodies
No longer do monsters live under beds
And all of a sudden you find yourself covering yourself in clothes 
To hide who you really are
A different kind of pretend takes place
Pretending to fit in
Pretending that you’re better than others
A tainted game in which people decided who plays
Our hands fade our creativity
No more finger paintings 
No more sand castles
Not enough time to play
I wish i was a kid again
I wish my life was as simple as a happy meal
The innocence within me passed way long ago
How ironic
How the tables have turned
Now wishing i could find my simple ways again
When it seemed like only yesterday
I couldn’t wait to grow up..

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Sunday, July 22, 2007

Hate Avenue

My fingers quickly working
Pushing my feelings into a computer 
It’s hard to put tears into words
But somehow I manage

Trying to tell a story
Without using a plot
Is as hard as it looks
But somehow.. I’ll manage

Now this,
Once pure
Twice lonely 
More than three times kicked down in the dirt man..
Has forgotton once again what he’s worth
Not worth as in merit, price or usefulness
But his worth as seen in the eyes of others

As seen in the eyes of love

Love.. 
Funny word..

Love is the reason beautiful songs, poems and plays are written
The sister to passion
The reason for existance
The dead end to all feelings

All roads lead to Love..
Even Hate avenue

Love.. 
Funny word..

The only word that gets harder to use as you figure out its true meaning
The only word that can change a life.. and a world.. in the same day
Love..
Kind of like a sponge 
Love absorbs you
And when it is done with you
It rings you out
But not all the water is returned
It keeps a small portion of you
And when its done with you
You’re never the same

Love..
What a funny word.. 



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Friday, July 13, 2007

A Promise To Not Miss

hitting a ball on the sweet spot is hard to do.. the ball.. 9 inches around.. just about the same as the barrell of a wooden bat.. they say that hitting the sweet part of the ball and the sweet part of the bat happens in an area about the size of a dime.. thats pretty impressive with someone standing 60 feet from you throwin a ball 90 miles an hour and you only havin .4 seconds to recongnize.. is it a fastball? slider? changeup? curveball? split? knuck? two seem? sinker? and after recognizing is it a ball? a strike? if it is a strike is this a pitch i can hit hard? 
hitting is hands down the hardest thing to do in sports.. hitting a homerun is something that is unreal when you take into consideration all that spoken above.. even if you recognize the pitch.. see the location.. know its something you can hit hard.. once you swing.. you have to hit that part on the ball and bat.. the size of a dime.. no room for error.. you can NOT miss… 

his aged hands rubbed against one another as he looked through his thick glasses and began to speak to me.. most parents would cover their childs ears in disgust and remove their little one from the room with the words and phrases he’d use.. but there was no stoppin him.. orville was orville.. and he it didn’t matter if the prophet, the president or god himself was in the room.. orville was going to be orville, and we loved him for that. 

he was the only one in the family that ever called me tycen.. everyone else called me tag.. or even bo.. a nickname i made my parents call me for almost two years. but not orv.. to him i was always tycen.. 
“tycen, you want a peanut butter and jelly sandwich?”  orv’s specialty.. he made them for me everyday.. tosted and caked with peanut butter.. to this day i can’t have one without thinkin of how he used to make them.. no wonder i had some extra baby fat to lose all through high school. 
i spent my summers at his house, everyday.. playing with ally cats, shooting bb guns, riding on riding lawn mowers, making homemade skate boards and eating some of the most crazy things you’ve ever seen put together.. and as soon as the sun went down.. i’d go inside and watch the braves play until my mom or dad came to pick me up.. 
right there was my fist 12 years of my life.. spending time with my grandpa and grandma..  grandpa taught me alot.. he taught me to swear, to punch and how to sit on the porch and watch the girls go by.. my grandma was the only sense of reality around the house.. she was the anchor that kept my grandpa from driftin too far.. 
both of them never missed a baseball game of mine.. they loved baseball.. my grandma could tell you the whole braves lineup.. what their average was and who they should pick up to fill in the holes in the lineup..  they didn’t like football or soccer and could tolerate basketball.. but baseball was their true passion…. after every game i played he’d ask me the same question.. did ya have fun?     sometimes people forget to have fun.. even as little kids.. i was glad he reminded me after every game he would remind me the most important part of baseball is having fun.. 
every game he came to that i would hit a homerun he’d always pay me money.. i’d try and try to give him the homerun ball but he would never accept it..
YOU KEEP IT
he’d say..
I JUST WANT YOU TO PROMISE ME THAT YOU WILL GIVE ME YOUR FIRST PROFESSIONAL HOMERUN… 
ok.. i’d agree.. 
i never really thought about it.. never thought about being an actual professional baseball player and hitting a homerun.. i just kind of knew it was going to happen cause my grandpa spoke of it as if it had already happend.. 
i remember being 18 years old and standing next to a hospital bed.. my grandpa strapped to a bunch of machines, barely breathing.. 
WHERE’S MY BOYS.. 
he said.. referring to me and my brothers…
we stepped forward and he began to talk.. i can’t remember much but i still remember him lookin at me and sayin.. 
YOU STILL OWE ME..
i knew what he was referring to right away.. the ball.. 
i made a promise to him and i know i will keep it.. everytime i’m on deck i think about the ball traveling over the fense.. touching home and knowing my grandpa was over me watching with tear filled eyes…
i promise i won’t let ya down grandpa.. you always believed in me and knew what i was capable of.. i promise that i will soon get my pitch.. and when i do.. 
i promise i won’t miss…. 

   
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