Forgetting Who I Am

Deep breath in
As it all begins
I know I can’t stop it
I think its the end
I try askin for help
I try to tell a friend
But my words can’t escape
A message I can’t send
Fall to the ground
With no one around
Sweat beats down my face
My heart starts to pound
My eyes start to fade
Thinkin of mistakes i’ve made
How I wish I would have listened
How I wish I would have stayed
If I had another chance
Just one more opportunity
I wouldn’t let these demons
Do what they do to me
My eyes turn black
My eyes roll back
And my lights go out
Just like that
I start to awaken
Feel my body shakin
I see its pointless
To take the pills i’m takin
My body slows its pace
My heart slows its race
I can finally move
To wipe the sweat off my face
How I wish this would go
And just leave me alone
This unstable disease
Is why I got sent home
Now every time it strikes
I hope its my last
Everytime this happens
It reminds a regretful past